I had some deep depressing thoughts while showering today. I'm in a mommy funk.
Will I ever purchase expensive lotions and body scrubs again for myself or will I continue to use Baby Soft products?
Will my husband ever treat me to a new piece of jewelry "just because", with three college funds looming over our heads?
Will I ever be able to head out, on a whim, to catch a movie with friends without planning it three weeks in advance?
Will I ever know what's going on in our country or the world again? All the information in my head seems to be about diaper rash, which decongestants I can give to whom and what time soccer is.
Will I ever know the new top song or even new top groups out other than Disney pop stars?
Will I ever wear a dress again? Or a nightgown? Or heels? Or lipstick? Or jeans that cost more than $20?
Will I ever walk into a department store or book store and not head to the kids section right away?
Will I ever NOT get excited about a new cartoon character shaped Spaghetti-O's or chicken nuggets?
I'm up to my ears in mommyness. I just need to see the light at the end of the long dark tunnel.
I love my kids and appreciate them and know it's a short time in my life that they will be this little. But I'd just like to know it will be over at some point. I will have freedom again and be able to think about myself. Someday. I'm sure then, I'll miss them being so little. The grass is always greener... right?